“And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.”
Today, as I woke up “on the wrong side of the bed”. I’ve been full of rage. Galatians 5:22 “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness…” has not been a part of my mind and heart today. As I finally got Kaiden down for his nap, took a hot shower and got some time to reflex on my heart – I knew I needed to sit and read some of God’s word to get myself back on track. I hoped my notebook and it was there, BAM!, like a sword into my heart “Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you” As, I’m writing this sentence I’m being tested on my kindness towards my son. He just got up again when he is to be down for his nap... Ok, now he’s back in bed so let’s see if I can get my heart and head clear again. My pastor Michael Fletcher says God gave us marriage to kill you and what’s left of you will be done away with by your children. I’m really feeling that right now. More than anything in the world I want to sleep for about 20 hours right now, and then go to the gym, get a pedicure, go shopping by myself, and then hang out with my best friend over a cup of tea and scones. But I have laundry to do, work to prepare for, dinner to make, and a very moody two and a half year old to tend to today. I just remember Luke 9: 23- 24 “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it” and of Proverbs 27:17 “As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharps another.” My life is not for me but for Christ. I have given my life for Him. God has given me my husband and Kaiden to give me greater understanding of His love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, and goodness. I’m reminded now of all Christ has done for me and all the grace he has given me. My life should always be an outpouring of what I have poured into me. Today, I’m going to put away my old self once again and say good-bye to all bitterness, rage, harsh words, and slander. Instead, through the aid of the Holy Spirit I’m greeting with open arms the spirit of kindness, being tenderhearted especially to my son, and most importantly forgiving, because I have been forgiven so much.
Lord, thank you for your word, thank you for the conviction of your holy spirit, and thank you for your never-ending forgiveness! Jesus I have been angry and full of rage today please take that out of my heart and mind bind those spirits away from me. And replace them with kindness, a tender heart, forgiveness, and love! Please work in the hearts of my family to forgive me where I have failed them. Thank you Lord for your love you are such an amazing God who I do not have the words to praise enough.
It is amazing and it may be hard to believe, but I can not tell you how much my spirit has changed in the last 25 minutes of sitting down to read and write my thoughts out to God. That's why I really had to share my heart on this. I don't really like to share my weak points but I felt like God was telling me I needed to share this one today.
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